special @ 4:42 PM
wow today me and my friends ditched x-country practice and went to burger king. hahahaha =]. it was fun. the hillsongs cd finally came in the mail. i've been in love with it since. haha. so lately i've really been thinking about my life. its a bit awkward that nothing is my life is bad. no major troubles. no girl problems. nothing. everything is just so smooth. i think i kinda miss being troubled because it gave me something to do and think about. now its kinda like i'm bored all the time. and things are just kinda dull because usually i'm chasing after some girl i can never get. its exciting, but in the end i know it hurts. but i don't needa do that now. but now i think back. how can i be so stupid. i'm complaining because things are going smoothly. what the hell? whoever thought of that. i see how lucky i am. and how many blessings i have. some i see. some are in disguise. school is not very stressful on me. many of my best friends are at church that i see regularly, and always have a blast with. some of my most special friends are half way around the world. but honestly it doesn't seem too far. because i've learned that i can just reach out. and still. that same special person. i would've never thought after what we've went through, there would be light on the other side. that segment of time was so dark and scary, we wish we would die already. but He came to our rescure. and dug us out. now there is the warmth of the sun, and we can see. now i can say that she has completely changed the way i want to live. to be better. maybe she's reading this and thinks i'm crazy. maybe i'm crazy instead. but right now, i feel so blessed. because even when things don't go the way i want it to go, it always ends up for the better. it hurts so much i can't explain, but give it time, and when its all over, you can look back on all the things He has taught you. He leads my life and i love him. and i thank him, for all the people in my life. and i thank her, for helping me see that i need to become someone better. she means so much to me even though we don't talk as long or as much. i can finally let go, knowing that there is always a friend out there that may not understand, but at least will try to listen. and it makes me feel so special, i love you my Savior.
In the quiet, in the stillness
I know that You are God
In the secret of Your presence
I know there I am restored
When You call I won’t refuse
Each new day again I’ll choose
There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring Him praise
In the chaos, in confusion
I know You’re Sovereign still
In the moment of my weakness
You give me grace to do Your will
When You call I won’t delay
This my song through all my days
All my delight is in You Lord
All of my hope, all of my strength
All my delight is in You Lord Forevermore
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oh no'ss @ 10:22 PM
alright haha. so u all know that i've been on the brooke fraser trend. haha and i just found out that she has a PRIVATE concert in san francisco downtown next week! omgosh i want to go soo bad but i'm not sure who would go with me since its on a sunday night. omgosh if i went it would be soooo amazing.. haha anyway. enough about brooke fraser.
so its been a pretty slow day, not much happenining. i watched american football most of the day. i loveee it [;[;. just people hitting each other as hard as they can. haha. great stuff. uh, yeah not much new. it gets kinda lonely. since my true friends are the people in my fellowship. i get kinda sick of the people at school. just because they're not as understanding. one of my closest friends from school told me that i'm really religious and it sickens her. i got kinda hurt by that but i keep my mouth shut. =\. awh well there's always people like that in the world. i don't feel as close to her anymore. but God told us in his word that we would be persecuted. i've always read it, but it has never happened to me before. now that it has. i understand it now. and i'm strong. =]
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hillsongs addiction @ 9:43 PM
omgosh sorry guys i know i haven't blogged in a long time. yesterday i went to a hillsongs concert and lemme just tell you. there is nothing more awesome. oh man. i know its really soon but a new dream of mine is to finish one semester at hillsongs leadership college. in sydney. oh man. brooke fraser <33333 ahhhh. haha she has such a awesome voice, and accent. omgosh i love her lol. too bad she's married. but her husband can play guitar. i forgot his name. its like scotty or something =P. doesn't matter. ahaha. then we went out for burgers. i got home at like.. 12:30 on a school night. and my parents weren't mad or anything. i was like whoa.. this is awesome [;[;. haha. now i gotta study hard. cuz i actually really do wanna go to leadership college. sounds like a once in a lifetime experience. and i also get to go to singapore next summer [;[;. so pray for me guys! pray i can keep focus and study up! if i keep my grades up for 3 more months i'll see you guys next summer! oh man i'm so pumped up. i gotta go to another hillsongs united concert..
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