What a Trip @ 2:36 PM
my 2nd day back from singapore. i feel lonely. singapore changed my life, but when i got home it was like nothing changed at all. everyone was still stuck in the same routine. I really do miss the people over there. I have found that every place in this world is boring when you are not with the right people. i trust that God will guide me. That i will be in his hands forever. I miss her company. Love is patient, thats something i must work on. since i came back the life and the will to move in me was lost. i didn't eat, sleep, move. i just sat in front of the computer, waiting, thinking. last night something changed. i don't know how, but i was sleeping, at 2:30am i woke up, and i was drawn to check my computer. when i looked at the screen, i saw her message. immediately i was wide awake. She had work to do, but i decided that i would wait for her. i was afraid to sleep because i may not wake up until morning. i decided that a loss of sleep is worth at least 1 minute being able to say hi and bye. but she came back, and we just talked. by the end, my heart was full of joy. The life in me was brought back. Although i still miss her dearly, i believe that God wants us to continue living our lives also. I have promised, that i will wait. no matter what happens, i will wait for her until the next time we meet. even if she doesn't feel the same. i am determined to stay with her, even if she is not with me. i love her.
Father Almighty, I pray that you will be with us. comfort us, ease this pain. Lord i cannot thank you enough for all you have done for me. we have gotten this far. Lord i pray that you keep our bond strong, unbreakable. even as time fades the attraction between us, please help me stay commited to my promise. I ask that you be with her, please lead her through her hard times, with her friends, school, church. i pray that you will just let her be happy, even if it means i must be sad. Lord please keep our faith, hope and love strong. and help us with our patience. Please let us put you before each other. be the base of us. Awesome father, I thank you again, for bringing her into my life. keep us safe. In Jesus name we pray~Amen
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